Dear Long Lost Best Friend,

Dear Long Lost Best Friend,

Its been ages since we spoke and I know things are not going to change.  I really wish we had never been friends. I wonder if we were ever friends!

If not always, at least once in a while, I wanna find out how you are doing. Or how things are going on at your end. Even though I gather from social media that everything is okay, just a word from your end that things are okay will be so good.
I know I can't fix your troubles/ be there for you morally.. But just for the sake of old times and also because I genuinely care for you, can't we talk once in a while without making it a big deal?!
Maybe we can longer be best friends but,

Can't we be acquaintances and not strangers?!
Can't you visit me when I finally have a home of my own ?
Can't there be one proper birthday wish?
...
Can't there be at least one phone call a year?

I meet new people every day.. I spend time, 'hang out" with them.. But I confess that there are very few friends like you.

If I tell you this, I am the weaker one. The one with no self respect...
But if I don't, there will be regret and remorse - one day when I am old and have nothing else to do, I'd wish I'd tried one last time.
If you were in my place, what would you do? Now tell me, what should I do?

Many a time, I gave up on you. Many a time, I crossed you off my list. Many a time, I don't give a damn..
But all the time, you pop up : over simple conversations, those casual outings.. just that fraction of second where I wish you were there along with the others..

And here's the truth. I finally realized something. I was never the best friend you always claimed me to be..
I am whom I am - just someone whom you "hung out" with..

Take care...

Sincerely,
Your Friend (??)